This August has been very interesting month for my poker career not just because I lost a lot of money but due to my new perception. I have had such a terrible run on my $2/4 (400NL) games during the late weeks of August. I am fully aware that I am not playing most opmital style and making some -EV plays. However, I know I am a winning player and had been winning over 10k/month over past 3 months and disciplined enough to grind from my $100 initial deposit for almost 3 years now to result my bankroll to up to where I am. Let's look at the graph of this month. Consider I average out to play about 2000 hands per day and pay very close attention to the spikes and downs. If you are a professional poker, you would say I am doing fine and its nature but to me, I mean its just insane to me =)
August 2008 BB/100: 1.18, NET: +$5,603.75
As shown above and suprisingly, I still did not end up losing at the end of the month and actually generated almost $6,000 profit on August. One thing to note from the graph is that I have had a big winning day/and small consecutive losing days. I particuallly do not think I tilted or played extremely bad on any of the sessions I played but it was great experience for me to realize the extreme swings on the game. It was frustrating due to just run of cards and I was just getting stressed way too much on my game because I put my chips on even when I am ahead and still end up losing. Now, let's look at some of the hands that I ran into.
PokerStars Game #20180670898: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/05 22:58:09 ET
Table 'Perseus II' 6-max Seat #5 is the button
Seat 1: gomaspt ($2138.65 in chips)
Seat 2: KingKoopa2 ($571 in chips)
Seat 3: Hyi_Vam ($443 in chips)
Seat 4: uYNamron ($400 in chips)
Seat 5: Jschlach ($489.55 in chips)
Seat 6: LuxuryMaster ($848 in chips)
LuxuryMaster: posts small blind $2
gomaspt: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [Ac As]
KingKoopa2: folds
Hyi_Vam: folds
uYNamron: folds
Jschlach: folds
LuxuryMaster: raises $12 to $16
gomaspt: calls $12
*** FLOP *** [8h Ah 8d]
LuxuryMaster: checks
gomaspt: checks
*** TURN *** [8h Ah 8d] [Jd]
LuxuryMaster: bets $28
gomaspt: calls $28
*** RIVER *** [8h Ah 8d Jd] [7d]
LuxuryMaster: bets $72
gomaspt: raises $128 to $200
LuxuryMaster: raises $604 to $804 and is all-in
gomaspt: calls $604
*** SHOW DOWN ***
LuxuryMaster: shows [Ac As] (a full house, Aces full of Eights)
gomaspt: shows [Td 9d] (a straight flush, Seven to Jack)
gomaspt collected $1693 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $1696 | Rake $3
Board [8h Ah 8d Jd 7d]
Seat 1: gomaspt (big blind) showed [Td 9d] and won ($1693) with a straight flush, Seven to Jack
Seat 2: KingKoopa2 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 3: Hyi_Vam folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: uYNamron folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: Jschlach (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 6: LuxuryMaster (small blind) showed [Ac As] and lost with a full house, Aces full of Eights
PokerStars Game #20184312309: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/05 22:59:04 ET
Table 'Caubeta' 6-max Seat #1 is the button
Seat 1: brizzybreech ($398 in chips)
Seat 2: LuxuryMaster ($358 in chips)
Seat 3: iheartcoco ($386.70 in chips)
Seat 4: oceanbillly ($394 in chips)
Seat 5: Laxalicious ($648.40 in chips)
Seat 6: Greakfreak ($484.35 in chips)
LuxuryMaster: posts small blind $2
iheartcoco: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [8s 8c]
oceanbillly: folds
Laxalicious: folds
Greakfreak: calls $4
brizzybreech: folds
LuxuryMaster: raises $16 to $20
iheartcoco: folds
Greakfreak: calls $16
*** FLOP *** [Js Ah 3c]
LuxuryMaster: bets $32
Greakfreak: calls $32
*** TURN *** [Js Ah 3c] [8h]
LuxuryMaster: bets $76
Greakfreak: raises $356.35 to $432.35 and is all-in
LuxuryMaster: calls $230 and is all-in
Uncalled bet ($126.35) returned to Greakfreak
*** RIVER *** [Js Ah 3c 8h] [Th]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
LuxuryMaster: shows [8s 8c] (three of a kind, Eights)
Greakfreak: shows [2h Jh] (a flush, Ace high)
Greakfreak collected $717 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $720 | Rake $3
Board [Js Ah 3c 8h Th]
Seat 1: brizzybreech (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: LuxuryMaster (small blind) showed [8s 8c] and lost with three of a kind, Eights
Seat 3: iheartcoco (big blind) folded before Flop
Seat 4: oceanbillly folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: Laxalicious folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 6: Greakfreak showed [2h Jh] and won ($717) with a flush, Ace high
PokerStars Game #20185370330: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/05 22:58:44 ET
Table 'Hubei' 6-max Seat #3 is the button
Seat 1: Bouge_Todd ($430.10 in chips)
Seat 2: great1974 ($246 in chips)
Seat 3: LuxuryMaster ($350.55 in chips)
Seat 4: miraculix06 ($473.60 in chips)
Seat 5: DaHellRaiser ($569.50 in chips)
Seat 6: sancaetano ($252.80 in chips)
miraculix06: posts small blind $2
DaHellRaiser: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [Ad Ks]
sancaetano: folds
Bouge_Todd: folds
great1974: raises $16 to $20
LuxuryMaster: raises $44 to $64
miraculix06: folds
DaHellRaiser: folds
great1974: calls $44
*** FLOP *** [9s 3c 2s]
great1974: bets $182 and is all-in
LuxuryMaster: calls $182
*** TURN *** [9s 3c 2s] [5s]
*** RIVER *** [9s 3c 2s 5s] [3d]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
great1974: shows [5c Ac] (two pair, Fives and Threes)
LuxuryMaster: mucks hand
great1974 collected $495 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $498 | Rake $3
Board [9s 3c 2s 5s 3d]
Seat 1: Bouge_Todd folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: great1974 showed [5s Ac] and won ($495) with two pair, Fives and Threes
Seat 3: LuxuryMaster (button) mucked [Ad Ks]
Seat 4: miraculix06 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 5: DaHellRaiser (big blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: sancaetano folded before Flop (didn't bet)
PokerStars Game #20185337793: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/12 4:02:11 ET
Table 'Fornax' 6-max Seat #2 is the button
Seat 2: dave798111 ($1139 in chips)
Seat 3: Itz_ ($644.35 in chips)
Seat 4: LuxuryMaster ($370 in chips)
Seat 5: topgun1026 ($406 in chips)
Seat 6: babyhoss555 ($371.60 in chips)
Itz_: posts small blind $2
LuxuryMaster: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [Qd Qh]
topgun1026: calls $4
yymee has returned
babyhoss555: raises $12 to $16
dave798111: calls $16
Itz_: calls $14
LuxuryMaster: raises $52 to $68
topgun1026: folds
babyhoss555: folds
dave798111: folds
Itz_: calls $52
*** FLOP *** [Ks 5h 7c]
Itz_: checks
LuxuryMaster: checks
*** TURN *** [Ks 5h 7c] [Th]
Itz_: bets $101
LuxuryMaster: calls $101
*** RIVER *** [Ks 5h 7c Th] [8s]
Itz_: bets $272
LuxuryMaster: calls $201 and is all-in
Uncalled bet ($71) returned to Itz_
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Itz_: shows [8d 8c] (three of a kind, Eights)
LuxuryMaster: mucks hand
Itz_ collected $774 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $776 | Rake $2
Board [Ks 5h 7c Th 8s]
Seat 2: dave798111 (button) folded before Flop
Seat 3: Itz_ (small blind) showed [8d 8c] and won ($774) with three of a kind, Eights
Seat 4: LuxuryMaster (big blind) mucked [Qd Qh]
Seat 5: topgun1026 folded before Flop
Seat 6: babyhoss555 folded before Flop
PokerStars Game #20187440625: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/12 4:07:21 ET
Table 'Caubeta' 6-max Seat #6 is the button
Seat 1: DarDaugiau ($384 in chips)
Seat 2: daaaaaaan ($90.85 in chips)
Seat 3: G-De-Gus ($330 in chips)
Seat 4: donkydynamit ($540.65 in chips)
Seat 5: Ck1ko ($461.10 in chips)
Seat 6: LuxuryMaster ($775.30 in chips)
DarDaugiau: posts small blind $2
daaaaaaan: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [Tc Td]
G-De-Gus: folds
donkydynamit: folds
Ck1ko: folds
LuxuryMaster: raises $8 to $12
DarDaugiau: raises $32 to $44
daaaaaaan: folds
LuxuryMaster: calls $32
*** FLOP *** [9d 8h 7d]
DarDaugiau: checks
LuxuryMaster: bets $68
DarDaugiau: raises $272 to $340 and is all-in
LuxuryMaster: calls $272
*** TURN *** [9d 8h 7d] [5d]
*** RIVER *** [9d 8h 7d 5d] [As]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
DarDaugiau: shows [Th Ah] (a pair of Aces)
LuxuryMaster: mucks hand
DarDaugiau collected $769 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $772 | Rake $3
Board [9d 8h 7d 5d As]
Seat 1: DarDaugiau (small blind) showed [Th Ah] and won ($769) with a pair of Aces
Seat 2: daaaaaaan (big blind) folded before Flop
Seat 3: G-De-Gus folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: donkydynamit folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: Ck1ko folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 6: LuxuryMaster (button) mucked [Tc Td]
PokerStars Game #20186865314: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/12 4:12:38 ET
Table 'Havnia' 6-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: donkydynamit ($267.15 in chips)
Seat 2: dmbush ($400 in chips)
Seat 3: LuxuryMaster ($386.75 in chips)
Seat 4: LovEva ($595.80 in chips)
Seat 5: Sunking25 ($285.30 in chips)
Seat 6: Noahnick72 ($188.10 in chips)
Sunking25: posts small blind $2
Noahnick72: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [Kc Ks]
donkydynamit: folds
dmbush: raises $8 to $12
LuxuryMaster: raises $32 to $44
LovEva: folds
Sunking25: folds
Noahnick72: folds
dmbush: calls $32
*** FLOP *** [9h Jd 4c]
dmbush: checks
LuxuryMaster: bets $64
dmbush: calls $64
*** TURN *** [9h Jd 4c] [6h]
dmbush: checks
LuxuryMaster: bets $136
dmbush: raises $156 to $292 and is all-in
LuxuryMaster: calls $142.75 and is all-in
Uncalled bet ($13.25) returned to dmbush
*** RIVER *** [9h Jd 4c 6h] [5s]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
dmbush: shows [4h 4d] (three of a kind, Fours)
LuxuryMaster: mucks hand
dmbush collected $776.50 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $779.50 | Rake $3
Board [9h Jd 4c 6h 5s]
Seat 1: donkydynamit folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: dmbush showed [4h 4d] and won ($776.50) with three of a kind, Fours
Seat 3: LuxuryMaster mucked [Kc Ks]
Seat 4: LovEva (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: Sunking25 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: Noahnick72 (big blind) folded before Flop
PokerStars Game #20185487411: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/08/26 4:17:41 ET
Table 'Malautra' 6-max Seat #5 is the button
Seat 1: gaIad ($544 in chips)
Seat 2: lavidaloca11 ($684.40 in chips)
Seat 3: LuxuryMaster ($783.40 in chips)
Seat 4: Bouge_Todd ($400 in chips)
Seat 5: Duckslayer2k ($400 in chips)
Seat 6: Mentosan ($619.40 in chips)
Mentosan: posts small blind $2
gaIad: posts big blind $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to LuxuryMaster [Ks Kc]
lavidaloca11: folds
LuxuryMaster: raises $8 to $12
Bouge_Todd: calls $12
Duckslayer2k: folds
Mentosan: folds
gaIad: folds
*** FLOP *** [5c 2d 4h]
LuxuryMaster: bets $20
Bouge_Todd: calls $20
*** TURN *** [5c 2d 4h] [4s]
LuxuryMaster: checks
Bouge_Todd: bets $48
LuxuryMaster: calls $48
*** RIVER *** [5c 2d 4h 4s] [3d]
LuxuryMaster: checks
Bouge_Todd: bets $120
LuxuryMaster: calls $120
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Bouge_Todd: shows [9h Ah] (a straight, Ace to Five)
LuxuryMaster: mucks hand
Bouge_Todd collected $403 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $406 | Rake $3
Board [5c 2d 4h 4s 3d]
Seat 1: gaIad (big blind) folded before Flop
Seat 2: lavidaloca11 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 3: LuxuryMaster mucked [Ks Kc]
Seat 4: Bouge_Todd showed [9h Ah] and won ($403) with a straight, Ace to Five
Seat 5: Duckslayer2k (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 6: Mentosan (small blind) folded before Flop
Imagine this type of situation happens almost simultaneously on 2-3 on my games during the last week of august and I was just getting frustrated on this and the swings are just overwhelming for me to handle. It's like losing my biweekly pay check within 10 minutes of the game and I am just getting way too stressed over this type of situation. I am fully aware it doesn't always happen but I just feel like I need some time off for now. Especially the first hand, it is actually bad beat jack pot if this hand was played on Full Tilt to rakehouse's bad beat insurance!
I have decided to cash out a lot of money from Pokerstars and decide to move down to $1/2 where I can feel confortable and beat the easy games after -$2k swing today. I always thought that bankroll management is the most important thing. However, I perceived that your emotion and managing your comfort zone is as important as bankroll management. I mean, I had this type of situations occuring during last 3 months of play but I always won it back at the end and thats why graph is just spiking if you see on my last post but just losing losing losing doesn't really cut it. I have patience and disciplines on my game but it became just for beyond the control. I actually take this circumstance positively due to this perception of swing on $2/4 and this is probably a very thin and tough border line that I have to across and cope if I were to manage myself to become part time poker professional which is what I am pursuing as my secondary job.
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